Lost 118 Pounds
There I was, a nurse and mother of three young children; obligations, responsibilities, a career, a family. But, at 253 lbs, I wanted to stay in the house, in bed, hiding, and let my life pass me by.
A former competitive athlete, I was very self-conscious about my weight. My feet hurt and my clothes looked awful on me so now, rather than play sports I avoided outdoor activities. It was miserable having to sit alone and watch my kids swim, ski, play, go to the beach… and I just sat there.
I was obsessed with guilt about being fat. I shouldn’t have eaten that, what will I eat next, when can I eat next, but I shouldn’t eat that and on and on. That thought process playing over and over in my head was paralyzing.
Looking at family photos over the past 13 years you would have thought I did not exist. It was too painful to see myself in photos; I had to be the one with the camera in hand to avoid any shots of myself. My ongoing feelings of despair were repeatedly interrupted by periods of determination to get my life back. I committed to every diet imaginable losing 100lbs, 70lbs, 90lbs, only to gain it back again. Finally, after another forced diet plan failed, I decided that my last hope and chance to regain my life was gastric bypass. I wanted to live a full and happy life with my children and at the rate I was going that was not going to happen. Instead, I had been literally killing myself. As a healthcare professional I knew enough to be able to research my options. I wanted the best chance for success but I also knew that surgeons needed skill and I wanted the best.
From what I knew as an insider in the medical field, there was no question in my mind that the only doctors that I could entrust with my children’s Mom were the Dr.’s Quebbemann and Braverman of The N.E.W. Program. Well, all that “is now 8” years ago. Before I went in for surgery the physicians at The N.E.W. Program explained that once the weight starts to come off, I would need to become more active and embrace a healthy lifestyle change and all I thought was, “I can’t wait.” Today I am down 120 lbs and I’m fit.
The past “several” years have been great! I have taken up horseback riding with my kids, gone hiking in Yosemite and Sequoia, taught my kids how to paddle a canoe, boogie board, swim and surf. Once again, I’m a competitive athlete racing outrigger canoes. After winning the Nation Title we recently placed second in the World competition, racing between Molokai and Oahu across 42 miles of open sea. (see photos!) Instead of sitting on the “sidelines” watching I am happy, active and living every day of my life to the fullest.
Finally, I’m a healthy role model for my children. They brag to their friends about my athletic achievements. I can also feel comfortable in my jeans and proudly pose for a family photo. This would not have been possible if I had remained stuck in the depressed, fat, really tortuous lifestyle that I had. But, that is now in the past and I will never go back there again. I am forever grateful for the skill and expertise of the surgeons at The N.E.W. Program.